Thursday, August 30, 2007
I am sooooooooooo super duper bored! I am bored to tears! Today is our school's meet the parents session. Now here I am sitting in my class , waiting for the parents to turn up... the worse thing is that it is such a nice weather to sleep.... I can't help but appear tired! oops! Think I need a coffee! or anything that will perk me up, since most the time coffee is of no help! Well, I also have to prepare for tomorrow's teacher's day dinner. Need to look up on how to get to the particular area. Wierd, ulu place! having a headache now... sigh... really so sian!
Will continue another time...
Will continue another time...
Monday, August 27, 2007
Our weekend...
Well, saturday came and went really quickly. Dear went for his IPPT in the morning and he came to my house to meet me after that. We went to my cousin's son first month celebration. Stayed there for like 3 hours... dear and I were actually soooo bored.. cos we din know the people there at all and it was like only the two of us... so we basically whiled our time away looking out towards the open area where people were playing frisbee.. haha.... Moreover, it was really windy and the weather was actually quite good... hee... =) nice scenery... haha...
After the celebration, we went back to my house for a while before the two of us headed for Causeway Point. Had to go there to get some stuff as well as to collect our rings from TianPo. They were actually wedding bands, which my mum bought for us as a present. *Thanks Mum* Of cos, we hadnt decided to wear it at all though.. haha... and we are still deciding if we want to do engraving on it. But of cos, like I told my dear, this does not mean he doesn't have to get another eh-hem... proposal ring! haha!!! =) *grinz*
Finally, we went back home and it was pouring away! Yuck! At one point of time, the car in front of mine went past this puddle of water and totally caused all the water to splash up and covered my view totally! =( Tsk tsk....
Went home to watch CSS, and hey, Shawn won! Yeah! Though his performance was not all that good but I loved him! haha...!!! =) Jia you, Shawn! You can do super well! =)
Felt really sick at night and had a fever. Dear stayed to look after me, while forming his deck. Hee... my sweet darling! =)
Next morning, had to go and help my auntie at her stall while dear went to meet his friends for dim sum... hee... think the food was quite good and dear enjoyed the food too... After the meal, he came to look for me at my auntie's place and we waited for my sister to come before we could go home and get changed to go to Zim's place for Key's birthday celebration.
We finally reached there at about 4 plus 5. Dear was really worried about me as I was still pretty unwell. But I was ok la... not too bad... So we went on with all the activities and all... =) As usual, Zim bought popiah.. very nice ones! hehe... den I enjoyed wrapping them up too! haha... fun mah! and my dear praised me for doing the popiah quite well! hahah!!! *smiles + glitter*
Anyway, at about ten, we started to pack up and got ready to go home... there was this really awkward moment, when we had to share the lift with 2 other people... I really felt weird, especially since one of them was standing real close to dear... hmmm.. me and all my wild thots... I just cant be ok!!!
But whatever, it is already over. I need to get the past outta my mind! Sigh..
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Would like to thank my dear for always there to console me and all... =) Really do not know what to do without him... I don think I would be able to survive till now, through all the difficulties and all... Thanks darling! =)
Kinda lost it with dear today. Though my dear is no handsome hunk, he is definitely charming in his own way. When I was his jie, I really felt that he had a way with girls, not in the bad sense, but in the sense that he was a really nice person and that his accomodating ways are always a winner with girls. Can see why there are quite a number of girls who like to look for him, as well as being interested with him and all... But the thing is, sometimes, that charm of his really makes me feel uneasy. Really uneasy. No one can really tell what would happen in the future, and I always start to wonder. There is definitely a chance that there would be others who are interested in dear dear... and what happens if dear is interested in the person as well... Sigh. =(
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Some Updates...
Sch just started...2nd week now...For this sem, i'm taking onli 4 mod including my FYP which all my previous sem, i was taking 6!!! one would expect life to be easier ba, but sadly enough its not, this sem seemed like a busiest sem of all...though i have lect onli for 4 days a week, i have to go to sch everyday...working on my FYP in the Lab!!! so sian... veri stress oso... lots of rushing here and there... lots of conflicting instructions in this FYP oso cos there are many prof involved in it but they are always not together in the meetings... they think and talk and give instructions separately which are often gg in different dir from the others... din reali had a break although i had a 3 months holi... so so sad... no break = no rest... yawnZzz.... now my sch life involve ard my FYP and my studies, nth more... not interested in getting to noe more ppl which includes freshies and all... no time and energy for all this... just wanna concentrate in doing my best in the things on hand...
this sat is my IPPT, think i gg to fail it too...haha...too long never go training le...been doing tt for the past 3 days though not everyday but think its still not enough...anyway, will try my best this sat...fail i will book again... still got ard a month before my bday comes, meaning the close of the window of the IPPT... as wat Dear mentioned oso, past and coming weekends are busy days for the both of us oso... sometimes just feel like relaxing at home w Dear and dun need to go out... have not reali done that for a veri long time le...
My Dear...reali hope that incident can be out of yr mind soon... reali dun like u to be reminded of that incident constantly... i noe its hard for you but try ok... Bei Bei will be here to help you oso... *hug* i personally thinks that u for not flaring up when she flared at u is correct... its just shows that u have much more sportsmanship than her... she has done that a pretty lots of times alr... its pretty obvious abt the incident... no one complained abt u being rough when u played w them... so dun get affected by it... wont be gg for bball this fri oso cos of IPPT on the following day so lets take a week rest from bball ok Dear... Cheer Up ok my Dear... *muack*
Nothing much to blog about seemingly lately... Kinda busy at work and when I get home, I turn into a slacking mood. Sigh. Really busy week I think it is going to be once again. There seems to be a lot of work to be done once again. I am so looking forward to the break . But before that, I still have tons of stuff to clear. =( Well, I guess that is necessary. Work... *bleah*
Arghh... I have an observation tomorrow. There is going to be an external guest as well. Oh dear. Sigh. Talking about stressed with observation, having an additional guest doesn't really help in the least. Well, I really have gotta prepare for the observation, if not, I think I am dead meat. There remains to be so much to be done. Oh dear!!!! =( Well, I think I have to buck up! Jia you gal!
Dear hasn't been blogging for a while too. Apparently, that boy is still too busy with his FYP thingy. Moreover, lessons have already started and I guess that kinda adds up to his business as well... No choice. But dear, do try to blog ok. It is not really all that fun trying to maintain this blog by myself and it is so boring to read things pertaining to myself all the time.
Somehow, the recent Saturdays have all been a killer. Super busy. Been packed with full month celebrations and all sorts of things. I have also been rushing here and there to get presents and all. Woah... So super packed. This sat is my cousin's son full month too. And den sunday is Key's birthday. Full weekend once again. Wonder if I will be able to watch CSS this saturday... sigh.. Finals leh!
Hmmm... think I am too petty. Till now, at times, I still ponder about the incident that happened last Friday. Sigh. Still struggling upon the decision as to whether to continue playing or stop for the time being as well. As to whether I should go this sunday. Sometimes avoidance seems like a good method, but to others, it may well be you look damn petty. For me, I simply do not like awkward situation. Like I told dear, there would be no problem with the person mingling with the others, but for me, there seem to be a huge problem. I just have a feeling, a really bad feeling. Afterall, xian ru wei zhu... People tend to accept those whom they know earlier. Human tendency. Advice!!! I need some! *throwing my hands in the air*
Saturday, August 18, 2007
My Bao Bao is no Outsider!!!
Dear...Just wanna tell u that u are not an outsider at all...U are my gf, my future wife...i'm so sorry that you felt humiliated and sad...its reali not your fault...*muack*
Rainy day... nice day to sleep in.. But I have to get up still.. cos people are at my house fixing cupboards.. sigh... then have to clear up after that.. Moreover I have to go to Tampines for my friend's 1st month... Oh well... but really nice time to sleep... so cooling.... *nuan*
Well, went for bball yesterday... had fun at first... but things turned sour after a while... was playing a match... then it so happened that I happened to mark another person, so much so till the extent that the person wasnt able to go past... and then that person just flared up... and threw the ball at another person and then shouted guard till so tight for what... I was really upset and I just stopped playing there altogether... no mood to play already anyway... I was quite shocked and upset... and actually i felt pretty humiliated... =( apparently that person couldnt let it go and continued to yak about iteven after i went off for a drink... Sigh... Knew that the person had a bad temper, but I thought that outburst was pretty over the top... Sigh... *shrugs*
But after that, had a small game on my own which is pretty fun... but overall the day was already gone.. felt like the person was badmouthing me all the way and that I somehow became the butt of jokes for being violent and all... sigh... and that I shouldnt guard and all... couldnt help but kept thinking about it... did I overdo my guarding... Its not like that wasnt any retaliation... sigh... Forget it... But I cant... Kept asking dear is it my fault... am i like so petty but sigh... nm
In the end, din go for dinner with them cos I really din like to have a weird atmosphere.. really don like it... so rather choose to stay away.. Maybe its not the best method, but I know my presence was not really welcome...
Now thinking about whether I should still go, cos I really beginning to have a even stronger feeling of unwelcomeness... So many things i reconsidering if i should go.. sigh.. don really feel like seeing the person again... maybe i am petty, but i don like it... i knw 'd make things difficult for dear, but sigh... doesnt realkly seem to have any other options... afterall i came in so much later... outsider should leave automatically... =(
Monday, August 13, 2007
Hee... some random pictures... =)
This one is of all the sweets and tidbits and toy we got for playing at the arcade... hehe...
a random picture of bei and myself... =)
Us... last year at the Lantern Festival thingy... hehe... at Chinese Garden....
My birthday prezzie from my sister and her bf last year...
Hmm.... I think I still have quite a number of pictures not uploaded... but doesnt matter.. hehe... see when I can do it again.,.. Kekek.... =) Looking forward to takin more pictures with my dear dear....
Oh yah.. our rings are ready for collection... So excited! =) hehehe....
Friday, August 10, 2007
Hmm... well National Day has come and go... Really a very wonderful parade by the bay yesterday... too bad I couldnt be there... hehe... think I would have quite liked it as well...
Anyway, spent nearly the whole day clearing up my room and the next room and our cupboard as we are getting ready for new cupboards... hehe... really tired day yesterday....
Anyway, going to play bball again today! Yeah! hehehe... really need to improve my bball le.. hehe... think i play really lousy.. keke... but nvr mind.. try bah!
Oh yea, going to catch a movie today.. finally... after so long.. nvr watch movie at all... hehe... finaaly!!!!! gotta start doing my work.. will update again...
Oh, just wanna say jia you to my dear with his work!
Well, a long overdue update of pictures.. haha.. havent been uploading anything of late... since today i am free, shall do a little.. however... still short of quite a few pictures.. hehe... cos its in my laptop... but just for now...
Our first anniversary gifts to each other... Mine to dear... a jigsaw puzzle of all the disney couples... =)
From dear to me... a monopoly game of sorts made up of all the movies we have watched! hehe... creative right? a super sweet prezzie from my darling chester... =)
Really loved the present he got ready for me... super sweet... hehe... can see the amount of effort he put in! really wonderful prezzie... Thanks dear! =)
We have also just passed out first year first month! haha... but we din give each other anything cos we were both too busy... haha... but it is indeed wonderful that we are reached one milestone and approaching the other... =)
More pictures soon, i hope... =p
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Time really flies. It is going to be National Day once again. Hehe... and also would be our first year first month anniversary le! =) Really looking forward to it. =)
Well, been pretty busy lately due to all the things that I need to complete at work and I find that I am really falling back a lot. Sigh. Really need to do some catching up soon! If not, would be really bad! Then I would be in deep shit! Sigh. But I really do wish I have some time to do those stuff too! Or rather, mood. Hehe. *winks*
Anway, been thinking about what to wear for National Day cos my friends and I are going to be onstage to do some stuff. So we decided to get some similar clothes and accessories. Haha... Going to look for a mesh cap and also maybe a white skirt and a red / white top and red gloves. Keke... =) Think might be nice to have a sporty attire! Haha... So exciting. And to top it all up, that day happens to be dear and my anniversary! hehehe... =) Happiness is all around! Next week is going to be a short week for me as well. Relaxing! hehe... Big reason why I am looking forward to it... I can spend a long weekend with my dear.
Well, just some random thoughts... Sometimes, things can just happen. I have no idea why it happens but it does. These few days, I am always unhappy with dear. I have no idea why. I feel that I always snap at him and all. I feel that we have no chemistry / mo qi and that we seem to have nothing to say to each other. It's like we are so bored of each other already. Sigh. I also donno why I am thinking this way. Dear has been trying to explain to me and all, but sometimes I just cannot get the things into my mind. I really wish I can think more positively, but ...... =(
We can be so happy during one moment and then super unhappy at another. I know it is not dear's fault. It is my fault. I am the stubborn one who always refuses to give in. Then also, it doesn't help that at times, I have a fantastic imagination! Sigh.
Anyway, this week is a really tiring week. I am nearly always stoning away. Help!
After the celebration, we went back to my house for a while before the two of us headed for Causeway Point. Had to go there to get some stuff as well as to collect our rings from TianPo. They were actually wedding bands, which my mum bought for us as a present. *Thanks Mum* Of cos, we hadnt decided to wear it at all though.. haha... and we are still deciding if we want to do engraving on it. But of cos, like I told my dear, this does not mean he doesn't have to get another eh-hem... proposal ring! haha!!! =) *grinz*
Finally, we went back home and it was pouring away! Yuck! At one point of time, the car in front of mine went past this puddle of water and totally caused all the water to splash up and covered my view totally! =( Tsk tsk....
Went home to watch CSS, and hey, Shawn won! Yeah! Though his performance was not all that good but I loved him! haha...!!! =) Jia you, Shawn! You can do super well! =)
Felt really sick at night and had a fever. Dear stayed to look after me, while forming his deck. Hee... my sweet darling! =)
Next morning, had to go and help my auntie at her stall while dear went to meet his friends for dim sum... hee... think the food was quite good and dear enjoyed the food too... After the meal, he came to look for me at my auntie's place and we waited for my sister to come before we could go home and get changed to go to Zim's place for Key's birthday celebration.
We finally reached there at about 4 plus 5. Dear was really worried about me as I was still pretty unwell. But I was ok la... not too bad... So we went on with all the activities and all... =) As usual, Zim bought popiah.. very nice ones! hehe... den I enjoyed wrapping them up too! haha... fun mah! and my dear praised me for doing the popiah quite well! hahah!!! *smiles + glitter*
Anyway, at about ten, we started to pack up and got ready to go home... there was this really awkward moment, when we had to share the lift with 2 other people... I really felt weird, especially since one of them was standing real close to dear... hmmm.. me and all my wild thots... I just cant be ok!!!
But whatever, it is already over. I need to get the past outta my mind! Sigh..
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Would like to thank my dear for always there to console me and all... =) Really do not know what to do without him... I don think I would be able to survive till now, through all the difficulties and all... Thanks darling! =)
Kinda lost it with dear today. Though my dear is no handsome hunk, he is definitely charming in his own way. When I was his jie, I really felt that he had a way with girls, not in the bad sense, but in the sense that he was a really nice person and that his accomodating ways are always a winner with girls. Can see why there are quite a number of girls who like to look for him, as well as being interested with him and all... But the thing is, sometimes, that charm of his really makes me feel uneasy. Really uneasy. No one can really tell what would happen in the future, and I always start to wonder. There is definitely a chance that there would be others who are interested in dear dear... and what happens if dear is interested in the person as well... Sigh. =(
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Kinda lost it with dear today. Though my dear is no handsome hunk, he is definitely charming in his own way. When I was his jie, I really felt that he had a way with girls, not in the bad sense, but in the sense that he was a really nice person and that his accomodating ways are always a winner with girls. Can see why there are quite a number of girls who like to look for him, as well as being interested with him and all... But the thing is, sometimes, that charm of his really makes me feel uneasy. Really uneasy. No one can really tell what would happen in the future, and I always start to wonder. There is definitely a chance that there would be others who are interested in dear dear... and what happens if dear is interested in the person as well... Sigh. =(
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Some Updates...
Sch just started...2nd week now...For this sem, i'm taking onli 4 mod including my FYP which all my previous sem, i was taking 6!!! one would expect life to be easier ba, but sadly enough its not, this sem seemed like a busiest sem of all...though i have lect onli for 4 days a week, i have to go to sch everyday...working on my FYP in the Lab!!! so sian... veri stress oso... lots of rushing here and there... lots of conflicting instructions in this FYP oso cos there are many prof involved in it but they are always not together in the meetings... they think and talk and give instructions separately which are often gg in different dir from the others... din reali had a break although i had a 3 months holi... so so sad... no break = no rest... yawnZzz.... now my sch life involve ard my FYP and my studies, nth more... not interested in getting to noe more ppl which includes freshies and all... no time and energy for all this... just wanna concentrate in doing my best in the things on hand...
this sat is my IPPT, think i gg to fail it too...haha...too long never go training le...been doing tt for the past 3 days though not everyday but think its still not enough...anyway, will try my best this sat...fail i will book again... still got ard a month before my bday comes, meaning the close of the window of the IPPT... as wat Dear mentioned oso, past and coming weekends are busy days for the both of us oso... sometimes just feel like relaxing at home w Dear and dun need to go out... have not reali done that for a veri long time le...
My Dear...reali hope that incident can be out of yr mind soon... reali dun like u to be reminded of that incident constantly... i noe its hard for you but try ok... Bei Bei will be here to help you oso... *hug* i personally thinks that u for not flaring up when she flared at u is correct... its just shows that u have much more sportsmanship than her... she has done that a pretty lots of times alr... its pretty obvious abt the incident... no one complained abt u being rough when u played w them... so dun get affected by it... wont be gg for bball this fri oso cos of IPPT on the following day so lets take a week rest from bball ok Dear... Cheer Up ok my Dear... *muack*
Nothing much to blog about seemingly lately... Kinda busy at work and when I get home, I turn into a slacking mood. Sigh. Really busy week I think it is going to be once again. There seems to be a lot of work to be done once again. I am so looking forward to the break . But before that, I still have tons of stuff to clear. =( Well, I guess that is necessary. Work... *bleah*
Arghh... I have an observation tomorrow. There is going to be an external guest as well. Oh dear. Sigh. Talking about stressed with observation, having an additional guest doesn't really help in the least. Well, I really have gotta prepare for the observation, if not, I think I am dead meat. There remains to be so much to be done. Oh dear!!!! =( Well, I think I have to buck up! Jia you gal!
Dear hasn't been blogging for a while too. Apparently, that boy is still too busy with his FYP thingy. Moreover, lessons have already started and I guess that kinda adds up to his business as well... No choice. But dear, do try to blog ok. It is not really all that fun trying to maintain this blog by myself and it is so boring to read things pertaining to myself all the time.
Somehow, the recent Saturdays have all been a killer. Super busy. Been packed with full month celebrations and all sorts of things. I have also been rushing here and there to get presents and all. Woah... So super packed. This sat is my cousin's son full month too. And den sunday is Key's birthday. Full weekend once again. Wonder if I will be able to watch CSS this saturday... sigh.. Finals leh!
Hmmm... think I am too petty. Till now, at times, I still ponder about the incident that happened last Friday. Sigh. Still struggling upon the decision as to whether to continue playing or stop for the time being as well. As to whether I should go this sunday. Sometimes avoidance seems like a good method, but to others, it may well be you look damn petty. For me, I simply do not like awkward situation. Like I told dear, there would be no problem with the person mingling with the others, but for me, there seem to be a huge problem. I just have a feeling, a really bad feeling. Afterall, xian ru wei zhu... People tend to accept those whom they know earlier. Human tendency. Advice!!! I need some! *throwing my hands in the air*
Saturday, August 18, 2007
My Bao Bao is no Outsider!!!
Dear...Just wanna tell u that u are not an outsider at all...U are my gf, my future wife...i'm so sorry that you felt humiliated and sad...its reali not your fault...*muack*
Rainy day... nice day to sleep in.. But I have to get up still.. cos people are at my house fixing cupboards.. sigh... then have to clear up after that.. Moreover I have to go to Tampines for my friend's 1st month... Oh well... but really nice time to sleep... so cooling.... *nuan*
Well, went for bball yesterday... had fun at first... but things turned sour after a while... was playing a match... then it so happened that I happened to mark another person, so much so till the extent that the person wasnt able to go past... and then that person just flared up... and threw the ball at another person and then shouted guard till so tight for what... I was really upset and I just stopped playing there altogether... no mood to play already anyway... I was quite shocked and upset... and actually i felt pretty humiliated... =( apparently that person couldnt let it go and continued to yak about iteven after i went off for a drink... Sigh... Knew that the person had a bad temper, but I thought that outburst was pretty over the top... Sigh... *shrugs*
But after that, had a small game on my own which is pretty fun... but overall the day was already gone.. felt like the person was badmouthing me all the way and that I somehow became the butt of jokes for being violent and all... sigh... and that I shouldnt guard and all... couldnt help but kept thinking about it... did I overdo my guarding... Its not like that wasnt any retaliation... sigh... Forget it... But I cant... Kept asking dear is it my fault... am i like so petty but sigh... nm
In the end, din go for dinner with them cos I really din like to have a weird atmosphere.. really don like it... so rather choose to stay away.. Maybe its not the best method, but I know my presence was not really welcome...
Now thinking about whether I should still go, cos I really beginning to have a even stronger feeling of unwelcomeness... So many things i reconsidering if i should go.. sigh.. don really feel like seeing the person again... maybe i am petty, but i don like it... i knw 'd make things difficult for dear, but sigh... doesnt realkly seem to have any other options... afterall i came in so much later... outsider should leave automatically... =(
Monday, August 13, 2007
Hee... some random pictures... =)
This one is of all the sweets and tidbits and toy we got for playing at the arcade... hehe...
a random picture of bei and myself... =)
Us... last year at the Lantern Festival thingy... hehe... at Chinese Garden....
My birthday prezzie from my sister and her bf last year...
Hmm.... I think I still have quite a number of pictures not uploaded... but doesnt matter.. hehe... see when I can do it again.,.. Kekek.... =) Looking forward to takin more pictures with my dear dear....
Oh yah.. our rings are ready for collection... So excited! =) hehehe....
Friday, August 10, 2007
Hmm... well National Day has come and go... Really a very wonderful parade by the bay yesterday... too bad I couldnt be there... hehe... think I would have quite liked it as well...
Anyway, spent nearly the whole day clearing up my room and the next room and our cupboard as we are getting ready for new cupboards... hehe... really tired day yesterday....
Anyway, going to play bball again today! Yeah! hehehe... really need to improve my bball le.. hehe... think i play really lousy.. keke... but nvr mind.. try bah!
Oh yea, going to catch a movie today.. finally... after so long.. nvr watch movie at all... hehe... finaaly!!!!! gotta start doing my work.. will update again...
Oh, just wanna say jia you to my dear with his work!
Well, a long overdue update of pictures.. haha.. havent been uploading anything of late... since today i am free, shall do a little.. however... still short of quite a few pictures.. hehe... cos its in my laptop... but just for now...
Our first anniversary gifts to each other... Mine to dear... a jigsaw puzzle of all the disney couples... =)
From dear to me... a monopoly game of sorts made up of all the movies we have watched! hehe... creative right? a super sweet prezzie from my darling chester... =)
Really loved the present he got ready for me... super sweet... hehe... can see the amount of effort he put in! really wonderful prezzie... Thanks dear! =)
We have also just passed out first year first month! haha... but we din give each other anything cos we were both too busy... haha... but it is indeed wonderful that we are reached one milestone and approaching the other... =)
More pictures soon, i hope... =p
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Time really flies. It is going to be National Day once again. Hehe... and also would be our first year first month anniversary le! =) Really looking forward to it. =)
Well, been pretty busy lately due to all the things that I need to complete at work and I find that I am really falling back a lot. Sigh. Really need to do some catching up soon! If not, would be really bad! Then I would be in deep shit! Sigh. But I really do wish I have some time to do those stuff too! Or rather, mood. Hehe. *winks*
Anway, been thinking about what to wear for National Day cos my friends and I are going to be onstage to do some stuff. So we decided to get some similar clothes and accessories. Haha... Going to look for a mesh cap and also maybe a white skirt and a red / white top and red gloves. Keke... =) Think might be nice to have a sporty attire! Haha... So exciting. And to top it all up, that day happens to be dear and my anniversary! hehehe... =) Happiness is all around! Next week is going to be a short week for me as well. Relaxing! hehe... Big reason why I am looking forward to it... I can spend a long weekend with my dear.
Well, just some random thoughts... Sometimes, things can just happen. I have no idea why it happens but it does. These few days, I am always unhappy with dear. I have no idea why. I feel that I always snap at him and all. I feel that we have no chemistry / mo qi and that we seem to have nothing to say to each other. It's like we are so bored of each other already. Sigh. I also donno why I am thinking this way. Dear has been trying to explain to me and all, but sometimes I just cannot get the things into my mind. I really wish I can think more positively, but ...... =(
We can be so happy during one moment and then super unhappy at another. I know it is not dear's fault. It is my fault. I am the stubborn one who always refuses to give in. Then also, it doesn't help that at times, I have a fantastic imagination! Sigh.
Anyway, this week is a really tiring week. I am nearly always stoning away. Help!
Sch just started...2nd week now...For this sem, i'm taking onli 4 mod including my FYP which all my previous sem, i was taking 6!!! one would expect life to be easier ba, but sadly enough its not, this sem seemed like a busiest sem of all...though i have lect onli for 4 days a week, i have to go to sch everyday...working on my FYP in the Lab!!! so sian... veri stress oso... lots of rushing here and there... lots of conflicting instructions in this FYP oso cos there are many prof involved in it but they are always not together in the meetings... they think and talk and give instructions separately which are often gg in different dir from the others... din reali had a break although i had a 3 months holi... so so sad... no break = no rest... yawnZzz.... now my sch life involve ard my FYP and my studies, nth more... not interested in getting to noe more ppl which includes freshies and all... no time and energy for all this... just wanna concentrate in doing my best in the things on hand...
this sat is my IPPT, think i gg to fail it too...haha...too long never go training le...been doing tt for the past 3 days though not everyday but think its still not enough...anyway, will try my best this sat...fail i will book again... still got ard a month before my bday comes, meaning the close of the window of the IPPT... as wat Dear mentioned oso, past and coming weekends are busy days for the both of us oso... sometimes just feel like relaxing at home w Dear and dun need to go out... have not reali done that for a veri long time le...
My Dear...reali hope that incident can be out of yr mind soon... reali dun like u to be reminded of that incident constantly... i noe its hard for you but try ok... Bei Bei will be here to help you oso... *hug* i personally thinks that u for not flaring up when she flared at u is correct... its just shows that u have much more sportsmanship than her... she has done that a pretty lots of times alr... its pretty obvious abt the incident... no one complained abt u being rough when u played w them... so dun get affected by it... wont be gg for bball this fri oso cos of IPPT on the following day so lets take a week rest from bball ok Dear... Cheer Up ok my Dear... *muack*
this sat is my IPPT, think i gg to fail it too...haha...too long never go training le...been doing tt for the past 3 days though not everyday but think its still not enough...anyway, will try my best this sat...fail i will book again... still got ard a month before my bday comes, meaning the close of the window of the IPPT... as wat Dear mentioned oso, past and coming weekends are busy days for the both of us oso... sometimes just feel like relaxing at home w Dear and dun need to go out... have not reali done that for a veri long time le...
My Dear...reali hope that incident can be out of yr mind soon... reali dun like u to be reminded of that incident constantly... i noe its hard for you but try ok... Bei Bei will be here to help you oso... *hug* i personally thinks that u for not flaring up when she flared at u is correct... its just shows that u have much more sportsmanship than her... she has done that a pretty lots of times alr... its pretty obvious abt the incident... no one complained abt u being rough when u played w them... so dun get affected by it... wont be gg for bball this fri oso cos of IPPT on the following day so lets take a week rest from bball ok Dear... Cheer Up ok my Dear... *muack*
Nothing much to blog about seemingly lately... Kinda busy at work and when I get home, I turn into a slacking mood. Sigh. Really busy week I think it is going to be once again. There seems to be a lot of work to be done once again. I am so looking forward to the break . But before that, I still have tons of stuff to clear. =( Well, I guess that is necessary. Work... *bleah*
Arghh... I have an observation tomorrow. There is going to be an external guest as well. Oh dear. Sigh. Talking about stressed with observation, having an additional guest doesn't really help in the least. Well, I really have gotta prepare for the observation, if not, I think I am dead meat. There remains to be so much to be done. Oh dear!!!! =( Well, I think I have to buck up! Jia you gal!
Dear hasn't been blogging for a while too. Apparently, that boy is still too busy with his FYP thingy. Moreover, lessons have already started and I guess that kinda adds up to his business as well... No choice. But dear, do try to blog ok. It is not really all that fun trying to maintain this blog by myself and it is so boring to read things pertaining to myself all the time.
Somehow, the recent Saturdays have all been a killer. Super busy. Been packed with full month celebrations and all sorts of things. I have also been rushing here and there to get presents and all. Woah... So super packed. This sat is my cousin's son full month too. And den sunday is Key's birthday. Full weekend once again. Wonder if I will be able to watch CSS this saturday... sigh.. Finals leh!
Hmmm... think I am too petty. Till now, at times, I still ponder about the incident that happened last Friday. Sigh. Still struggling upon the decision as to whether to continue playing or stop for the time being as well. As to whether I should go this sunday. Sometimes avoidance seems like a good method, but to others, it may well be you look damn petty. For me, I simply do not like awkward situation. Like I told dear, there would be no problem with the person mingling with the others, but for me, there seem to be a huge problem. I just have a feeling, a really bad feeling. Afterall, xian ru wei zhu... People tend to accept those whom they know earlier. Human tendency. Advice!!! I need some! *throwing my hands in the air*
Arghh... I have an observation tomorrow. There is going to be an external guest as well. Oh dear. Sigh. Talking about stressed with observation, having an additional guest doesn't really help in the least. Well, I really have gotta prepare for the observation, if not, I think I am dead meat. There remains to be so much to be done. Oh dear!!!! =( Well, I think I have to buck up! Jia you gal!
Dear hasn't been blogging for a while too. Apparently, that boy is still too busy with his FYP thingy. Moreover, lessons have already started and I guess that kinda adds up to his business as well... No choice. But dear, do try to blog ok. It is not really all that fun trying to maintain this blog by myself and it is so boring to read things pertaining to myself all the time.
Somehow, the recent Saturdays have all been a killer. Super busy. Been packed with full month celebrations and all sorts of things. I have also been rushing here and there to get presents and all. Woah... So super packed. This sat is my cousin's son full month too. And den sunday is Key's birthday. Full weekend once again. Wonder if I will be able to watch CSS this saturday... sigh.. Finals leh!
Hmmm... think I am too petty. Till now, at times, I still ponder about the incident that happened last Friday. Sigh. Still struggling upon the decision as to whether to continue playing or stop for the time being as well. As to whether I should go this sunday. Sometimes avoidance seems like a good method, but to others, it may well be you look damn petty. For me, I simply do not like awkward situation. Like I told dear, there would be no problem with the person mingling with the others, but for me, there seem to be a huge problem. I just have a feeling, a really bad feeling. Afterall, xian ru wei zhu... People tend to accept those whom they know earlier. Human tendency. Advice!!! I need some! *throwing my hands in the air*
Saturday, August 18, 2007
My Bao Bao is no Outsider!!!
Dear...Just wanna tell u that u are not an outsider at all...U are my gf, my future wife...i'm so sorry that you felt humiliated and sad...its reali not your fault...*muack*
Rainy day... nice day to sleep in.. But I have to get up still.. cos people are at my house fixing cupboards.. sigh... then have to clear up after that.. Moreover I have to go to Tampines for my friend's 1st month... Oh well... but really nice time to sleep... so cooling.... *nuan*
Well, went for bball yesterday... had fun at first... but things turned sour after a while... was playing a match... then it so happened that I happened to mark another person, so much so till the extent that the person wasnt able to go past... and then that person just flared up... and threw the ball at another person and then shouted guard till so tight for what... I was really upset and I just stopped playing there altogether... no mood to play already anyway... I was quite shocked and upset... and actually i felt pretty humiliated... =( apparently that person couldnt let it go and continued to yak about iteven after i went off for a drink... Sigh... Knew that the person had a bad temper, but I thought that outburst was pretty over the top... Sigh... *shrugs*
But after that, had a small game on my own which is pretty fun... but overall the day was already gone.. felt like the person was badmouthing me all the way and that I somehow became the butt of jokes for being violent and all... sigh... and that I shouldnt guard and all... couldnt help but kept thinking about it... did I overdo my guarding... Its not like that wasnt any retaliation... sigh... Forget it... But I cant... Kept asking dear is it my fault... am i like so petty but sigh... nm
In the end, din go for dinner with them cos I really din like to have a weird atmosphere.. really don like it... so rather choose to stay away.. Maybe its not the best method, but I know my presence was not really welcome...
Now thinking about whether I should still go, cos I really beginning to have a even stronger feeling of unwelcomeness... So many things i reconsidering if i should go.. sigh.. don really feel like seeing the person again... maybe i am petty, but i don like it... i knw 'd make things difficult for dear, but sigh... doesnt realkly seem to have any other options... afterall i came in so much later... outsider should leave automatically... =(
Monday, August 13, 2007
Hee... some random pictures... =)
This one is of all the sweets and tidbits and toy we got for playing at the arcade... hehe...
a random picture of bei and myself... =)
Us... last year at the Lantern Festival thingy... hehe... at Chinese Garden....
My birthday prezzie from my sister and her bf last year...
Hmm.... I think I still have quite a number of pictures not uploaded... but doesnt matter.. hehe... see when I can do it again.,.. Kekek.... =) Looking forward to takin more pictures with my dear dear....
Oh yah.. our rings are ready for collection... So excited! =) hehehe....
Friday, August 10, 2007
Hmm... well National Day has come and go... Really a very wonderful parade by the bay yesterday... too bad I couldnt be there... hehe... think I would have quite liked it as well...
Anyway, spent nearly the whole day clearing up my room and the next room and our cupboard as we are getting ready for new cupboards... hehe... really tired day yesterday....
Anyway, going to play bball again today! Yeah! hehehe... really need to improve my bball le.. hehe... think i play really lousy.. keke... but nvr mind.. try bah!
Oh yea, going to catch a movie today.. finally... after so long.. nvr watch movie at all... hehe... finaaly!!!!! gotta start doing my work.. will update again...
Oh, just wanna say jia you to my dear with his work!
Well, a long overdue update of pictures.. haha.. havent been uploading anything of late... since today i am free, shall do a little.. however... still short of quite a few pictures.. hehe... cos its in my laptop... but just for now...
Our first anniversary gifts to each other... Mine to dear... a jigsaw puzzle of all the disney couples... =)
From dear to me... a monopoly game of sorts made up of all the movies we have watched! hehe... creative right? a super sweet prezzie from my darling chester... =)
Really loved the present he got ready for me... super sweet... hehe... can see the amount of effort he put in! really wonderful prezzie... Thanks dear! =)
We have also just passed out first year first month! haha... but we din give each other anything cos we were both too busy... haha... but it is indeed wonderful that we are reached one milestone and approaching the other... =)
More pictures soon, i hope... =p
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Time really flies. It is going to be National Day once again. Hehe... and also would be our first year first month anniversary le! =) Really looking forward to it. =)
Well, been pretty busy lately due to all the things that I need to complete at work and I find that I am really falling back a lot. Sigh. Really need to do some catching up soon! If not, would be really bad! Then I would be in deep shit! Sigh. But I really do wish I have some time to do those stuff too! Or rather, mood. Hehe. *winks*
Anway, been thinking about what to wear for National Day cos my friends and I are going to be onstage to do some stuff. So we decided to get some similar clothes and accessories. Haha... Going to look for a mesh cap and also maybe a white skirt and a red / white top and red gloves. Keke... =) Think might be nice to have a sporty attire! Haha... So exciting. And to top it all up, that day happens to be dear and my anniversary! hehehe... =) Happiness is all around! Next week is going to be a short week for me as well. Relaxing! hehe... Big reason why I am looking forward to it... I can spend a long weekend with my dear.
Well, just some random thoughts... Sometimes, things can just happen. I have no idea why it happens but it does. These few days, I am always unhappy with dear. I have no idea why. I feel that I always snap at him and all. I feel that we have no chemistry / mo qi and that we seem to have nothing to say to each other. It's like we are so bored of each other already. Sigh. I also donno why I am thinking this way. Dear has been trying to explain to me and all, but sometimes I just cannot get the things into my mind. I really wish I can think more positively, but ...... =(
We can be so happy during one moment and then super unhappy at another. I know it is not dear's fault. It is my fault. I am the stubborn one who always refuses to give in. Then also, it doesn't help that at times, I have a fantastic imagination! Sigh.
Anyway, this week is a really tiring week. I am nearly always stoning away. Help!
Rainy day... nice day to sleep in.. But I have to get up still.. cos people are at my house fixing cupboards.. sigh... then have to clear up after that.. Moreover I have to go to Tampines for my friend's 1st month... Oh well... but really nice time to sleep... so cooling.... *nuan*
Well, went for bball yesterday... had fun at first... but things turned sour after a while... was playing a match... then it so happened that I happened to mark another person, so much so till the extent that the person wasnt able to go past... and then that person just flared up... and threw the ball at another person and then shouted guard till so tight for what... I was really upset and I just stopped playing there altogether... no mood to play already anyway... I was quite shocked and upset... and actually i felt pretty humiliated... =( apparently that person couldnt let it go and continued to yak about iteven after i went off for a drink... Sigh... Knew that the person had a bad temper, but I thought that outburst was pretty over the top... Sigh... *shrugs*
But after that, had a small game on my own which is pretty fun... but overall the day was already gone.. felt like the person was badmouthing me all the way and that I somehow became the butt of jokes for being violent and all... sigh... and that I shouldnt guard and all... couldnt help but kept thinking about it... did I overdo my guarding... Its not like that wasnt any retaliation... sigh... Forget it... But I cant... Kept asking dear is it my fault... am i like so petty but sigh... nm
In the end, din go for dinner with them cos I really din like to have a weird atmosphere.. really don like it... so rather choose to stay away.. Maybe its not the best method, but I know my presence was not really welcome...
Now thinking about whether I should still go, cos I really beginning to have a even stronger feeling of unwelcomeness... So many things i reconsidering if i should go.. sigh.. don really feel like seeing the person again... maybe i am petty, but i don like it... i knw 'd make things difficult for dear, but sigh... doesnt realkly seem to have any other options... afterall i came in so much later... outsider should leave automatically... =(
Well, went for bball yesterday... had fun at first... but things turned sour after a while... was playing a match... then it so happened that I happened to mark another person, so much so till the extent that the person wasnt able to go past... and then that person just flared up... and threw the ball at another person and then shouted guard till so tight for what... I was really upset and I just stopped playing there altogether... no mood to play already anyway... I was quite shocked and upset... and actually i felt pretty humiliated... =( apparently that person couldnt let it go and continued to yak about iteven after i went off for a drink... Sigh... Knew that the person had a bad temper, but I thought that outburst was pretty over the top... Sigh... *shrugs*
But after that, had a small game on my own which is pretty fun... but overall the day was already gone.. felt like the person was badmouthing me all the way and that I somehow became the butt of jokes for being violent and all... sigh... and that I shouldnt guard and all... couldnt help but kept thinking about it... did I overdo my guarding... Its not like that wasnt any retaliation... sigh... Forget it... But I cant... Kept asking dear is it my fault... am i like so petty but sigh... nm
In the end, din go for dinner with them cos I really din like to have a weird atmosphere.. really don like it... so rather choose to stay away.. Maybe its not the best method, but I know my presence was not really welcome...
Now thinking about whether I should still go, cos I really beginning to have a even stronger feeling of unwelcomeness... So many things i reconsidering if i should go.. sigh.. don really feel like seeing the person again... maybe i am petty, but i don like it... i knw 'd make things difficult for dear, but sigh... doesnt realkly seem to have any other options... afterall i came in so much later... outsider should leave automatically... =(
Monday, August 13, 2007
Hee... some random pictures... =)
a random picture of bei and myself... =)
Us... last year at the Lantern Festival thingy... hehe... at Chinese Garden....
My birthday prezzie from my sister and her bf last year...
Hmm.... I think I still have quite a number of pictures not uploaded... but doesnt matter.. hehe... see when I can do it again.,.. Kekek.... =) Looking forward to takin more pictures with my dear dear....
Oh yah.. our rings are ready for collection... So excited! =) hehehe....
This one is of all the sweets and tidbits and toy we got for playing at the arcade... hehe...
a random picture of bei and myself... =)
Us... last year at the Lantern Festival thingy... hehe... at Chinese Garden....
My birthday prezzie from my sister and her bf last year...
Hmm.... I think I still have quite a number of pictures not uploaded... but doesnt matter.. hehe... see when I can do it again.,.. Kekek.... =) Looking forward to takin more pictures with my dear dear....
Oh yah.. our rings are ready for collection... So excited! =) hehehe....
Friday, August 10, 2007
Hmm... well National Day has come and go... Really a very wonderful parade by the bay yesterday... too bad I couldnt be there... hehe... think I would have quite liked it as well...
Anyway, spent nearly the whole day clearing up my room and the next room and our cupboard as we are getting ready for new cupboards... hehe... really tired day yesterday....
Anyway, going to play bball again today! Yeah! hehehe... really need to improve my bball le.. hehe... think i play really lousy.. keke... but nvr mind.. try bah!
Oh yea, going to catch a movie today.. finally... after so long.. nvr watch movie at all... hehe... finaaly!!!!! gotta start doing my work.. will update again...
Oh, just wanna say jia you to my dear with his work!
Anyway, spent nearly the whole day clearing up my room and the next room and our cupboard as we are getting ready for new cupboards... hehe... really tired day yesterday....
Anyway, going to play bball again today! Yeah! hehehe... really need to improve my bball le.. hehe... think i play really lousy.. keke... but nvr mind.. try bah!
Oh yea, going to catch a movie today.. finally... after so long.. nvr watch movie at all... hehe... finaaly!!!!! gotta start doing my work.. will update again...
Oh, just wanna say jia you to my dear with his work!
Well, a long overdue update of pictures.. haha.. havent been uploading anything of late... since today i am free, shall do a little.. however... still short of quite a few pictures.. hehe... cos its in my laptop... but just for now...
Our first anniversary gifts to each other... Mine to dear... a jigsaw puzzle of all the disney couples... =)
From dear to me... a monopoly game of sorts made up of all the movies we have watched! hehe... creative right? a super sweet prezzie from my darling chester... =)
Our first anniversary gifts to each other... Mine to dear... a jigsaw puzzle of all the disney couples... =)
From dear to me... a monopoly game of sorts made up of all the movies we have watched! hehe... creative right? a super sweet prezzie from my darling chester... =)
Really loved the present he got ready for me... super sweet... hehe... can see the amount of effort he put in! really wonderful prezzie... Thanks dear! =)
We have also just passed out first year first month! haha... but we din give each other anything cos we were both too busy... haha... but it is indeed wonderful that we are reached one milestone and approaching the other... =)
More pictures soon, i hope... =p
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Time really flies. It is going to be National Day once again. Hehe... and also would be our first year first month anniversary le! =) Really looking forward to it. =)
Well, been pretty busy lately due to all the things that I need to complete at work and I find that I am really falling back a lot. Sigh. Really need to do some catching up soon! If not, would be really bad! Then I would be in deep shit! Sigh. But I really do wish I have some time to do those stuff too! Or rather, mood. Hehe. *winks*
Anway, been thinking about what to wear for National Day cos my friends and I are going to be onstage to do some stuff. So we decided to get some similar clothes and accessories. Haha... Going to look for a mesh cap and also maybe a white skirt and a red / white top and red gloves. Keke... =) Think might be nice to have a sporty attire! Haha... So exciting. And to top it all up, that day happens to be dear and my anniversary! hehehe... =) Happiness is all around! Next week is going to be a short week for me as well. Relaxing! hehe... Big reason why I am looking forward to it... I can spend a long weekend with my dear.
Well, just some random thoughts... Sometimes, things can just happen. I have no idea why it happens but it does. These few days, I am always unhappy with dear. I have no idea why. I feel that I always snap at him and all. I feel that we have no chemistry / mo qi and that we seem to have nothing to say to each other. It's like we are so bored of each other already. Sigh. I also donno why I am thinking this way. Dear has been trying to explain to me and all, but sometimes I just cannot get the things into my mind. I really wish I can think more positively, but ...... =(
We can be so happy during one moment and then super unhappy at another. I know it is not dear's fault. It is my fault. I am the stubborn one who always refuses to give in. Then also, it doesn't help that at times, I have a fantastic imagination! Sigh.
Anyway, this week is a really tiring week. I am nearly always stoning away. Help!
Well, been pretty busy lately due to all the things that I need to complete at work and I find that I am really falling back a lot. Sigh. Really need to do some catching up soon! If not, would be really bad! Then I would be in deep shit! Sigh. But I really do wish I have some time to do those stuff too! Or rather, mood. Hehe. *winks*
Anway, been thinking about what to wear for National Day cos my friends and I are going to be onstage to do some stuff. So we decided to get some similar clothes and accessories. Haha... Going to look for a mesh cap and also maybe a white skirt and a red / white top and red gloves. Keke... =) Think might be nice to have a sporty attire! Haha... So exciting. And to top it all up, that day happens to be dear and my anniversary! hehehe... =) Happiness is all around! Next week is going to be a short week for me as well. Relaxing! hehe... Big reason why I am looking forward to it... I can spend a long weekend with my dear.
Well, just some random thoughts... Sometimes, things can just happen. I have no idea why it happens but it does. These few days, I am always unhappy with dear. I have no idea why. I feel that I always snap at him and all. I feel that we have no chemistry / mo qi and that we seem to have nothing to say to each other. It's like we are so bored of each other already. Sigh. I also donno why I am thinking this way. Dear has been trying to explain to me and all, but sometimes I just cannot get the things into my mind. I really wish I can think more positively, but ...... =(
We can be so happy during one moment and then super unhappy at another. I know it is not dear's fault. It is my fault. I am the stubborn one who always refuses to give in. Then also, it doesn't help that at times, I have a fantastic imagination! Sigh.
Anyway, this week is a really tiring week. I am nearly always stoning away. Help!