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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

just blogging!

well well... dear is gg to have his exam again today... really pray and hope he does well.. sigh. been thinking have I been taking a lot of his time and affected his studies? he keeps saying no.. but i still fear so... =(

anyway dear stayed over at my place the night before.. hehe.. then studied at my house... hee.. well, I love his company and I am always happy when he stays over.. hee.. cos I just need to get myself off my bed and walk to the next room, I will be able to see him le.. hee... =)

Well, the whole of yesterday was spent clearing up my cupboard and then ironing my truckload of clothes... *sian* but no choice.. if not i would have no clothes to wear le... and since dear is over here studying, i might as well lah! hehe... =p well, now the end result is... my cupboard is soooo packed.. cos after ironing, i hung them up... and there seems to be no breathing space at all! keke.. oppsies...

also watched harry potter - goblet of fire yesterday.. cos the cable was down... so watched it with dear dear... hehe.. dear din watch it before and he had tons of questions.. so cute! hee.. sometimes he is just like a child... so adorable.. love him so much! keke...

recently learnt to play chess.. hee.. having fun playing with dear dear... although i quite sore loser lah.. hee.. lose to him v bu gan yan u knw.. hahaha... but well dear take it in his stride.. hehe.. muackz!

hmm.. think i really think too much lah.. and link things here and there.... oops... *bleah* dear was singing bsb songs the other day... and i started to ask him why he liked their songs... and well, dear being dear, he immediately guessed what I was trying to say and link to.... *tongue out le*and he immediately clarified it... *oopsies... i m a sheet of white paper*

oh, one big update! I bought my own mj set! hahaha.... Yay! finally! keke... *gleeful, jumping around*


Friday, November 24, 2006

overcomed with sadness...

Sometimes, I do not know what I do certain things for. Why do I make myself sad by going to read up on things of the past? Why can't I just move forward? What am I trying to do by reading all those stuff? True, I chanced upon them.. but why go read and then mull over it? Then in the end, I become so damn sad over it... sigh... :(

Started to think... why is he so looking forward to Christmas? Is it to make up for last year? Am I some sort of replacement? To replace what he was not able to do with her in the past?

Suddenly, I begin to dread our pending 5th month... because of the date... brings back much sad memories for him, I assume... I really donno how to approach that day... What am I to do... sigh...

Read what he had done for her... Can't help but start to think... can't help but start to compare... Read the blogs that he had written for her.. read the story of meow n sotong...

Arrggghh... I feel so helpless now... I am starting to think again... thinking too much again.. mulling over the past again... I tried telling myself... it's all in the past.. why bother about it? But sad to say, I am so useless... I still think about it... and I can't stop myself.. sigh.. Sometimes, I can't even figure out what I am thinking...

I suddenly feel so small... I suddenly feel so sad... I suddenly doubt everything... oh my god.. What am I to do? Why am I filled with doubts again? I suddenly wished I could have amnesia...

the pain.. the hurt... the tears... the memory... someone help me please...

I must not show it... I do not want to affect him... But I can't hide it too...

=(

Friday, November 03, 2006

continuation

Oh.. shall not forget to have some updates abt yesterday! kekeke... =)

Went to dear's house in the morning to buy breakfast for him and then after that went to the watch shop with Serene and Sophia. Hee.. Bought quite a bit of watches and some stuff for the kids as Christmas presents. Also bought two keychain watches for dear... One is of a soccer ball and another is a basketball.. hehe.. =) oh.. I also bought my adaptor! and a bluetooth adaptor too.. haha... my lappie is alive again! *Yay*

Had dinner at Boon Lay Raja with dear and my family. We met Mummy and Daddy at first. Mummy gave me my present - a Levis sling bag. hee... =p Nice nice nice! She also bought a shirt for dear dear... think dear is so paiseh lor.. cos my family seem to keep buying clothes for him. hahaha... =) Then dad treated me to the dinner (sharks fin, peking duck, etc! - - - - - SUPER YUMMY!) haha... and he bought me the adaptor as well.. hee... *grinz*

Then sis came with her present.. swavorski crystal necklace and earrings.. They come in a set! hehe... so nice.. It's a heart shaped pendant (which is double sided - unique rite?) and a pair of heart shaped earrings too! They are soooooo pretty lor... classic piece! *smiles*Shawn could not come to dinner cos he was sick.. But he called and sent his wishes.. haha,... Thanks!

Then when we were on our way home, I saw a pc of dress which I liked very much! so nice! heheh... =p Then in the end, my sis and mother and myself chipped in to buy that tube dress for me,... it was a green dress... nice nice... special colour i felt... hehe... =) and i tried it on.. and dear thought it was nice as well.. haha...

well, I am going to take pictures of all my presents and then post them in here! haha... cos they are all so nice and sweet...

Oh!!! Mummy gave me another prezzie this morning.. a Guess watch! really nice too! I love it so much! hehe... hehe... But think cost Mum a lot ah... oopss... *guilty*

Anyway I love all my presents and I love all my close ones!

*muackz and hugz*

my birthday surprise - courtesy of dear dear

woah... been a really long while since we last updated the blog le.. oppsies... =p

Anyway Happy Birthday to myself! hahaha... today's my birthday! keke... =) and I am VERY VERY VERY HAPPY! Thanks to my darling dear dear! He is really so super duper sweet... hee... =) =) =)

well.. dear dear stayed at my house yesterday till 2 plus last night cos he wanted to wish me Happy Birthday and all! So Sweet of him... hee... He was so tired but he still stayed back.. Really made my day.. hmm.. or rather night.. haha...

Then actually this morning dear dear told me to wake him up around 7.30 am cos he wanted to come to my house in the morning to accompany me for breakfast and then purchase the ingredients for dinner tonight.. (Dear is cooking for me!!! haha..!) But this morning I got a big big big surprise! At about 7.15 am, I was woken up by someone.. Guess who he is! Who else but my darling sweetie dear! hehe... He was sitting at beside me on my bed! When I woke up, he laid his big box of present in front of me! Hee... it was a big big box, which I accompanied him to purchase! Cos I thought it was for his sister... and to think that on Tuesday and yesterday when I went over to his house, the box was just lying there and I did not suspect anything! I really thought it belonged to his sister! *grinz sheepishly*

Well, here's the best part!

I opened the box. On the cover of the box was a hanging 'Happy Birthday'. It was so nice! The first thing I saw in the box was a big bouquet of flowers! It was handmade by my dear dear! So sweeet! There were 112 stalks of the flowers (I think they are roses!) initially... They were so beautiful.. and each single stalk was filled with my dear dear's effort! I was so so so touched and I am still touched! hee... It is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me! Handmade flowers! A whole bunch!!! *I am going to take many many photos of them and I will post it here!* kekekeke... Just thinking about them makes me smile... I could just stare at it for the whole day! hahaha... =) Thanks my love!

Then, dear passed me a scroll like thingy to read.. I read every word carefully... I made extra effort not to skip a single word (also cos I was a bit not totally awake too!) haha.. I had to pause at one point of time to look back at the bouquet of flowers again to search for my other present. I was looking and looking but I could not see it! After a while, (with dear's hint that it is among the flowers) I finally saw a silver sparkle among the flowers. And I found my ring! heheh... It was the design that I wanted! and on the ring was engraved 'Zhong'. hee... =) Sweet right? hee... dear dear got all my hints! hee.. and he got exactly what I wanted! hehehhehe... *smiling smiling smiling non stop!*
Oh oh oh!!! The ring is a perfect fit! Not too big nor too small! haha... Just nice!
I had to take out a stalk to take out the ring and that stalk was actually not meant to be placed back. taking away one from 112 makes 111. A number which my dear dubbed as 'yi sheng yi shi de wei yi'! hee... special and one of a kind right? hee...! Trust my dear to come up with all these! hee... =)

But hey! It's not the end! Finally, it was time for the card! Dear emptied the box and then opened it up into a big card like thingy. Oh, it is really so pretty! I shall take pictures okie! as well as my ring too.. how can I forget that... oh did I mention dear also have one? And his has my name on it... keke.. Yuan! =)

Well, words really cant describe my joy and happiness.. My dear has really made good his words and gave me a really unforgettable and one of a kind and memorable birthday. He made me feel like the most blessed person on Earth! hahaha... Thanks dear.. really thanks for all the effort and time you put in... Really thanks for the love you give to me and really thanks for making me feel important... Thanks dear!

Anyway, I am waiting for evening to come so that I can have my dinner (cooked my my dear and dad too) and my cake! hehehe... =)

I love this birthday! Though I am one year older, but I am so happy... this is the happiest and most blessed birthday I have had in a long long while! =)

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