Thursday, March 29, 2007
thanks dear!
Hee.. dear dear has written... keke... =)
Well, dear dear really really dote on me a lot a lot! I shall announce it here and right now! =) hehehe.. I love my dear dear lah! He never fails to make me feel on the top of the world and being the most important in his life... =) and feel really treasured as well... Just yesterday, as we were digging for more Slamdunk comics, I saw a piece of paper which was given to him by someone who he liked for errmm... 2 years (so long ok!!!! never change leh! 2 years in JC!!!). Well, that is just one point... another was that the place where the comics were kept was a place where he placed all his important things... Imagine how I felt when I saw it there.... Sigh... was really sad and unhappy... thus I started to sulk... =( Well, my thoughts started to run wild.. Sigh.. typical me lah... dear dear sensed it immediately... and started to pacify me... me being a stubborn person... u know lah... =p And my poor dear spent the next 1 hour plus trying to cheer me up and explain things to me... He did something else... Knowing what made me unhappy, he took out the paper from the place to show it to me... and then he asked me to read.. but i refused... And he tore the paper in front of me into pieces... *gasp*
but I was still not happy... not pacified at all.... until somehow my qi xiao le... and his stupid faces made me laugh.. hahaha... =) and things were back to normal again... hee... =)
This morning, dear dear bought breakfast for me... but then he bought some wrong stuff.. and I got really upset cos I really wanted to them... and I was really upset when I could not get to eat them... So dear dear immediately went down to buy the right ones for me again! hahaha.... =) Thanks my dear baobei! hehehe.... =) See, he so teng me lah! =)
Aren't I blessed and xing fu? =)
*smug look*
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors!!!
Hi bao bao!!! here i am blogging once again...hee...*guilty look* anyway, just bought 2 super cute hamsters last sat...din reali intend to buy at all in the first place...we just happened to be eating muah chee outside the pet shop and were admiring the cute hamsters while eating...after eating, we then decided to go in and take a clearer look...the sale girl inside then did some introducing and such and i suddenly had the tot of buying them for bao bao...actually cos she reali look veri cute when she's looking and playing w them...hee...its been 5 days since we bought our 2 hamster which we named that bao bao and bei bei juniors...bao bao had been playing with them nearly all the time when she is back at home...she cant resist playing with them cos they are reali super lively and adorable...u must reali take a look at the juniors plus at my bao bao when she's playing w them...they are just like our babies and we are like a mini family le...hee...
Monday, March 26, 2007
bored
hmm.. this is a shared blog. But I seem to be the only one who is blogging. =( well, never mind. At least there is still me to keep it alive. I know dear is really busy, but I do hope he would at least make an attempt to blog.. even a short boring entry, I would be satisfied.
There seems to be an endless amount of work to be done. When is there a day when I can finally say I have finished all my work? Doesnt seem to be able to anticipate such a day at all! =( oh well, be thankful that I have job to do and I can do my work.
Just quite sian from preparing my stuff that's why came in to blog again..
This morning, my sis and her bf were quarrelling.. over what? I am not too sure at all... just heard them quarrel.. quite a fierce one I would say. =( Well, suddenly felt that the reason for 2 people to be together is to bring laughter and smiles and make each other happy. Especially if it is going to be a longterm relationship. If a couple cannot even fulfil this small condition and keep arguing all the time, what is the point of being together? There seems to be no point in together. Simply cos they cannot even bring to each other the most basic thing, the thing that doesnt need any money --> a smile. But well, that is how I feel. Maybe some people wont feelt that way. =)
Ok, that is the end of my wu liao entry... back to work!
24th march - birthday of....
Well, been some time since I last blogged. =) Been sick for the past few days... somehow, havent been in the best of health lately. Anyway less about this.. hee... shall talk more about our new babies! hehe...
24th March - Birthday of Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors. =)
Hehe... a day to remember.. Our hamsters.. keke... =) Actually dear dear wanted to buy it as a prezzie for me as our 9 months gift. However, I felt that it was too exp a gift and decided to share it with him.. So it became our 9th month gift to each other.. hehe... They are really cute, tiny creatures... hehe... our baobao and beibei jnr... hehe.. They are so cute lah... =) can't resist playing with them... hee... Think I will post some pictures up when I have downloaded them... dear dear always look so cute when he is playing with them.. haha... like a lil boy like that...
We bought a cage and some other necessary stuff to put in the cage... besides that, we also added in some decorative items.. haha... but we cannot add too much stuff if not it will become too crowded for them... hee...
Sigh.. missing my juniors now le... wish I can see them soon! =) must wait till end of the day le... haha... Today, I went out in the morning without looking at them... and then when I got into the lift, I realized that I havent said morning to them and I immediately went out to see them once again. haha... well done right? hahaha...
Anyway, just hope that bei bei is feeling better now.. he had a fever yesterday till today.. hope it has gone down... he did not go to school ah... hope he can rest well at home... =)
Last of all, just wanna say thanks to my dear dear for buying me the 2 lil cuties... =) Love u loads! =) Muackz!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
What is the problem?
Sometimes, I really wonder what is the problem with me? Why do I get so frustrated and upset over trivial matters? Sigh.. Why can't I be more tolerant and understanding? What is the big problem with me? Seriously, I do think I have one.
=(
To me dearest Bao Bao...
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November 
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Well, dear dear really really dote on me a lot a lot! I shall announce it here and right now! =) hehehe.. I love my dear dear lah! He never fails to make me feel on the top of the world and being the most important in his life... =) and feel really treasured as well... Just yesterday, as we were digging for more Slamdunk comics, I saw a piece of paper which was given to him by someone who he liked for errmm... 2 years (so long ok!!!! never change leh! 2 years in JC!!!). Well, that is just one point... another was that the place where the comics were kept was a place where he placed all his important things... Imagine how I felt when I saw it there.... Sigh... was really sad and unhappy... thus I started to sulk... =( Well, my thoughts started to run wild.. Sigh.. typical me lah... dear dear sensed it immediately... and started to pacify me... me being a stubborn person... u know lah... =p And my poor dear spent the next 1 hour plus trying to cheer me up and explain things to me... He did something else... Knowing what made me unhappy, he took out the paper from the place to show it to me... and then he asked me to read.. but i refused... And he tore the paper in front of me into pieces... *gasp*
but I was still not happy... not pacified at all.... until somehow my qi xiao le... and his stupid faces made me laugh.. hahaha... =) and things were back to normal again... hee... =)
This morning, dear dear bought breakfast for me... but then he bought some wrong stuff.. and I got really upset cos I really wanted to them... and I was really upset when I could not get to eat them... So dear dear immediately went down to buy the right ones for me again! hahaha.... =) Thanks my dear baobei! hehehe.... =) See, he so teng me lah! =)
Aren't I blessed and xing fu? =)
*smug look*
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors!!!
Hi bao bao!!! here i am blogging once again...hee...*guilty look* anyway, just bought 2 super cute hamsters last sat...din reali intend to buy at all in the first place...we just happened to be eating muah chee outside the pet shop and were admiring the cute hamsters while eating...after eating, we then decided to go in and take a clearer look...the sale girl inside then did some introducing and such and i suddenly had the tot of buying them for bao bao...actually cos she reali look veri cute when she's looking and playing w them...hee...its been 5 days since we bought our 2 hamster which we named that bao bao and bei bei juniors...bao bao had been playing with them nearly all the time when she is back at home...she cant resist playing with them cos they are reali super lively and adorable...u must reali take a look at the juniors plus at my bao bao when she's playing w them...they are just like our babies and we are like a mini family le...hee...
Monday, March 26, 2007
bored
hmm.. this is a shared blog. But I seem to be the only one who is blogging. =( well, never mind. At least there is still me to keep it alive. I know dear is really busy, but I do hope he would at least make an attempt to blog.. even a short boring entry, I would be satisfied.
There seems to be an endless amount of work to be done. When is there a day when I can finally say I have finished all my work? Doesnt seem to be able to anticipate such a day at all! =( oh well, be thankful that I have job to do and I can do my work.
Just quite sian from preparing my stuff that's why came in to blog again..
This morning, my sis and her bf were quarrelling.. over what? I am not too sure at all... just heard them quarrel.. quite a fierce one I would say. =( Well, suddenly felt that the reason for 2 people to be together is to bring laughter and smiles and make each other happy. Especially if it is going to be a longterm relationship. If a couple cannot even fulfil this small condition and keep arguing all the time, what is the point of being together? There seems to be no point in together. Simply cos they cannot even bring to each other the most basic thing, the thing that doesnt need any money --> a smile. But well, that is how I feel. Maybe some people wont feelt that way. =)
Ok, that is the end of my wu liao entry... back to work!
24th march - birthday of....
Well, been some time since I last blogged. =) Been sick for the past few days... somehow, havent been in the best of health lately. Anyway less about this.. hee... shall talk more about our new babies! hehe...
24th March - Birthday of Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors. =)
Hehe... a day to remember.. Our hamsters.. keke... =) Actually dear dear wanted to buy it as a prezzie for me as our 9 months gift. However, I felt that it was too exp a gift and decided to share it with him.. So it became our 9th month gift to each other.. hehe... They are really cute, tiny creatures... hehe... our baobao and beibei jnr... hehe.. They are so cute lah... =) can't resist playing with them... hee... Think I will post some pictures up when I have downloaded them... dear dear always look so cute when he is playing with them.. haha... like a lil boy like that...
We bought a cage and some other necessary stuff to put in the cage... besides that, we also added in some decorative items.. haha... but we cannot add too much stuff if not it will become too crowded for them... hee...
Sigh.. missing my juniors now le... wish I can see them soon! =) must wait till end of the day le... haha... Today, I went out in the morning without looking at them... and then when I got into the lift, I realized that I havent said morning to them and I immediately went out to see them once again. haha... well done right? hahaha...
Anyway, just hope that bei bei is feeling better now.. he had a fever yesterday till today.. hope it has gone down... he did not go to school ah... hope he can rest well at home... =)
Last of all, just wanna say thanks to my dear dear for buying me the 2 lil cuties... =) Love u loads! =) Muackz!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
What is the problem?
Sometimes, I really wonder what is the problem with me? Why do I get so frustrated and upset over trivial matters? Sigh.. Why can't I be more tolerant and understanding? What is the big problem with me? Seriously, I do think I have one.
=(
To me dearest Bao Bao...
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Hi bao bao!!! here i am blogging once again...hee...*guilty look* anyway, just bought 2 super cute hamsters last sat...din reali intend to buy at all in the first place...we just happened to be eating muah chee outside the pet shop and were admiring the cute hamsters while eating...after eating, we then decided to go in and take a clearer look...the sale girl inside then did some introducing and such and i suddenly had the tot of buying them for bao bao...actually cos she reali look veri cute when she's looking and playing w them...hee...its been 5 days since we bought our 2 hamster which we named that bao bao and bei bei juniors...bao bao had been playing with them nearly all the time when she is back at home...she cant resist playing with them cos they are reali super lively and adorable...u must reali take a look at the juniors plus at my bao bao when she's playing w them...they are just like our babies and we are like a mini family le...hee...
Monday, March 26, 2007
bored
hmm.. this is a shared blog. But I seem to be the only one who is blogging. =( well, never mind. At least there is still me to keep it alive. I know dear is really busy, but I do hope he would at least make an attempt to blog.. even a short boring entry, I would be satisfied.
There seems to be an endless amount of work to be done. When is there a day when I can finally say I have finished all my work? Doesnt seem to be able to anticipate such a day at all! =( oh well, be thankful that I have job to do and I can do my work.
Just quite sian from preparing my stuff that's why came in to blog again..
This morning, my sis and her bf were quarrelling.. over what? I am not too sure at all... just heard them quarrel.. quite a fierce one I would say. =( Well, suddenly felt that the reason for 2 people to be together is to bring laughter and smiles and make each other happy. Especially if it is going to be a longterm relationship. If a couple cannot even fulfil this small condition and keep arguing all the time, what is the point of being together? There seems to be no point in together. Simply cos they cannot even bring to each other the most basic thing, the thing that doesnt need any money --> a smile. But well, that is how I feel. Maybe some people wont feelt that way. =)
Ok, that is the end of my wu liao entry... back to work!
24th march - birthday of....
Well, been some time since I last blogged. =) Been sick for the past few days... somehow, havent been in the best of health lately. Anyway less about this.. hee... shall talk more about our new babies! hehe...
24th March - Birthday of Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors. =)
Hehe... a day to remember.. Our hamsters.. keke... =) Actually dear dear wanted to buy it as a prezzie for me as our 9 months gift. However, I felt that it was too exp a gift and decided to share it with him.. So it became our 9th month gift to each other.. hehe... They are really cute, tiny creatures... hehe... our baobao and beibei jnr... hehe.. They are so cute lah... =) can't resist playing with them... hee... Think I will post some pictures up when I have downloaded them... dear dear always look so cute when he is playing with them.. haha... like a lil boy like that...
We bought a cage and some other necessary stuff to put in the cage... besides that, we also added in some decorative items.. haha... but we cannot add too much stuff if not it will become too crowded for them... hee...
Sigh.. missing my juniors now le... wish I can see them soon! =) must wait till end of the day le... haha... Today, I went out in the morning without looking at them... and then when I got into the lift, I realized that I havent said morning to them and I immediately went out to see them once again. haha... well done right? hahaha...
Anyway, just hope that bei bei is feeling better now.. he had a fever yesterday till today.. hope it has gone down... he did not go to school ah... hope he can rest well at home... =)
Last of all, just wanna say thanks to my dear dear for buying me the 2 lil cuties... =) Love u loads! =) Muackz!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
What is the problem?
Sometimes, I really wonder what is the problem with me? Why do I get so frustrated and upset over trivial matters? Sigh.. Why can't I be more tolerant and understanding? What is the big problem with me? Seriously, I do think I have one.
=(
To me dearest Bao Bao...
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
There seems to be an endless amount of work to be done. When is there a day when I can finally say I have finished all my work? Doesnt seem to be able to anticipate such a day at all! =( oh well, be thankful that I have job to do and I can do my work.
Just quite sian from preparing my stuff that's why came in to blog again..
This morning, my sis and her bf were quarrelling.. over what? I am not too sure at all... just heard them quarrel.. quite a fierce one I would say. =( Well, suddenly felt that the reason for 2 people to be together is to bring laughter and smiles and make each other happy. Especially if it is going to be a longterm relationship. If a couple cannot even fulfil this small condition and keep arguing all the time, what is the point of being together? There seems to be no point in together. Simply cos they cannot even bring to each other the most basic thing, the thing that doesnt need any money --> a smile. But well, that is how I feel. Maybe some people wont feelt that way. =)
Ok, that is the end of my wu liao entry... back to work!
24th march - birthday of....
Well, been some time since I last blogged. =) Been sick for the past few days... somehow, havent been in the best of health lately. Anyway less about this.. hee... shall talk more about our new babies! hehe...
24th March - Birthday of Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors. =)
Hehe... a day to remember.. Our hamsters.. keke... =) Actually dear dear wanted to buy it as a prezzie for me as our 9 months gift. However, I felt that it was too exp a gift and decided to share it with him.. So it became our 9th month gift to each other.. hehe... They are really cute, tiny creatures... hehe... our baobao and beibei jnr... hehe.. They are so cute lah... =) can't resist playing with them... hee... Think I will post some pictures up when I have downloaded them... dear dear always look so cute when he is playing with them.. haha... like a lil boy like that...
We bought a cage and some other necessary stuff to put in the cage... besides that, we also added in some decorative items.. haha... but we cannot add too much stuff if not it will become too crowded for them... hee...
Sigh.. missing my juniors now le... wish I can see them soon! =) must wait till end of the day le... haha... Today, I went out in the morning without looking at them... and then when I got into the lift, I realized that I havent said morning to them and I immediately went out to see them once again. haha... well done right? hahaha...
Anyway, just hope that bei bei is feeling better now.. he had a fever yesterday till today.. hope it has gone down... he did not go to school ah... hope he can rest well at home... =)
Last of all, just wanna say thanks to my dear dear for buying me the 2 lil cuties... =) Love u loads! =) Muackz!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
What is the problem?
Sometimes, I really wonder what is the problem with me? Why do I get so frustrated and upset over trivial matters? Sigh.. Why can't I be more tolerant and understanding? What is the big problem with me? Seriously, I do think I have one.
=(
To me dearest Bao Bao...
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
24th March - Birthday of Bao Bao and Bei Bei Juniors. =)
Hehe... a day to remember.. Our hamsters.. keke... =) Actually dear dear wanted to buy it as a prezzie for me as our 9 months gift. However, I felt that it was too exp a gift and decided to share it with him.. So it became our 9th month gift to each other.. hehe... They are really cute, tiny creatures... hehe... our baobao and beibei jnr... hehe.. They are so cute lah... =) can't resist playing with them... hee... Think I will post some pictures up when I have downloaded them... dear dear always look so cute when he is playing with them.. haha... like a lil boy like that...
We bought a cage and some other necessary stuff to put in the cage... besides that, we also added in some decorative items.. haha... but we cannot add too much stuff if not it will become too crowded for them... hee...
Sigh.. missing my juniors now le... wish I can see them soon! =) must wait till end of the day le... haha... Today, I went out in the morning without looking at them... and then when I got into the lift, I realized that I havent said morning to them and I immediately went out to see them once again. haha... well done right? hahaha...
Anyway, just hope that bei bei is feeling better now.. he had a fever yesterday till today.. hope it has gone down... he did not go to school ah... hope he can rest well at home... =)
Last of all, just wanna say thanks to my dear dear for buying me the 2 lil cuties... =) Love u loads! =) Muackz!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
What is the problem?
Sometimes, I really wonder what is the problem with me? Why do I get so frustrated and upset over trivial matters? Sigh.. Why can't I be more tolerant and understanding? What is the big problem with me? Seriously, I do think I have one.
=(
To me dearest Bao Bao...
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
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To me dearest Bao Bao...
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
i have been reali busy recently cos of school work...reali lots of things to do and deadlines to rush...first time so much things to do actually...lots of projects and stresses from my fren...so sian...actually the purpose of this entry is to assure my bao bao...
seriously speaking, i reali blessed to have found u and be together w u my Dear...u reali understand me and know wat i'm thinking...i do not have to speak to let u noe how i feel or wat i wants...i do not have to question myself whether u love me or not for, its alr a fact to me...i have no doubts in that fact!!!I have prepared to spend my life with u and u only...though we do quarrel at times but seriously, i never bother to think back once they are over...U always think u are not gd and not compatible w me but i can tell u, its not true...we are meant for one another, there is no one more suitable for me than u...seriously, if this r/n is not gg to work out, there wont be another for me to try...i have alr decided and tt's being with u and u only...i wont give up on u, no matter wat...i just wanna give u wat i have promised u and let u always be blissfully in love...
though this 8 months plus time may not be a very long time, but u have alr integrated as a part of me and a routine...a routine to be able to c u, hug u and kiss u bao bao...i dun want to change this routine!!! i reali like the touch of yr hands and face as i always tell u and its reali true...it always bring warmth straight to my heart...pls dun tell me go look for someone better hao ma, i dun believe that!!! i onli want u who loves me as much as i love her... dun u think its reali a blessing to have found someone who will reciprocate yr feelings and be together??? i have found mine n i believe u have found yrs too bao bao...
seriously, when u r telling me abt this fren buying flat or another fren gg for trips and buying exp bags, i dun feel pressured at all...jus tt i dunno how to reply u when u ask me why they have so much money n such...some ppl are more well off than others and some poorer...to me, i choose to live a contented life so dun reali care abt how rich others are...hee...but i noe u are one who is easily contented too...buy u some small small gifts or a stalk of flower can make u jump for joy alr wor...hee...(",)v...its reali ok if u wish to have some exp gifts...seriously i dun mind buyng for u one, just tt u have to wait for a year more okie...once i starts working can le...seriously, i dun mind spending on my precious bao bao one...*hug*
After writing so much, the most impt thing i wanna tell u my Dear is; pls dun leave me okie...let's hold on to each other's hand and continue our life journey together... i wont let go of my hand, its u that i want to hold on to bao bao...Believe me....
Monday, March 19, 2007
boring post...
Sigh... That time of the month again... Feel so terrible... Also do not know why these days I have this kind of pains and they are really not very bearable most of the time! =(
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Start of work again.. quite bored lah... sigh.. and actually a bit blur also cos already one week holiday.. haha... do not like the first day of school... Not fun at all! =(
Well, dear dear is so sweet... Told him I blogged yesterday night and he immediately read it early in the morning today. Hee... =) and he came to reassure me about it... =) Well, thanks a lot dear dear...
Nothing much to blog about... =p
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my holidays...
Had a long day today. Was helping my auntie at her stall for the whole day today. Besides, started off the day quite badly. =( Ignore that... cos I'm in a relatively good mood now.. hee.. =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Anyway, holidays are over. This is the most boring fact I have to face today. With the ending of today comes tomorrow... meaning a new term begins.. and a hectic ten weeks begin all over again. Oh well, what can I say? Work... *bleah*
But anyway went to NUS to meet dear after my school on Friday. Got a ride from the coach.. hehe.. so I managed to reach there earlier than expected.. hehe... =) and got to spend more time with dear dear... We went to Munchie Monkey ( I think that is the spelling.. Not too sure also) to have our lunch as well as to slack till 4 p.m. so that we can go for bball.. hee.. Enjoyed myself there, doing my work, eating with dear and just being in a relaxed mood there with dear dear... I always like to do that with my dear.. haha.. we played games. teased each other, etc.. it was fun.. Got a bit of sunburnt.. Think it was from in the sun in the morning... scorching hot sun it was... *Yuck* Well had fun at bball.. though think there were moments of unhappiness of sorts, but it's ok , I won't let that affect me.. hehe... cos I like bball... (influenced by my baobei, of cos!) but sad part, I'm not good at it... =( Anyway trying hard to learn, but at such an old age, picking up is super slow and I'm bad at dribbling and all.. Well, back to friday, I did not do a good job at shooting but I think I did fine in getting rebounds and all.. haha... think I'm adopting dear dear's style already... getting rebounds.. hahaha.. Think I happen to be at the right place at the right time.. hee.. in the end, I kept getting guarded.. hahaha... =p Oh!!! my toe nail broke! *urghh!*
Dear slept at my house on Friday, or rather Saturday morn.. cos by the time we got home, it was already Saturday morn! hahaha... well, he slept at my house and we woke up around 1 p.m. We started to watch Saw 3 at about 3 plus... hee.. I like the show, but it was super duper gory!!!! But I would say the plot is very good! Well done! hehehe... and they closed off everything very nicely. =) At about 5 plus, I went off to meet my friends - CY, PW, LP and PS - for dinner and chit chat session... hee... Enjoyed myself with them too... enjoy catching up and all... We had dinner at this jap place called Wakuru or something like this... food was fine, but not fantastic or whatsoever.. =p Oh, we went to Heerens... and there was this shop which sold really nice jewellery.. decide to drag dear there to look at them when free.. hahaa... cos they are really so nice and sweet, but I did not want to waste money so I did not buy anything in the end.. besides, I would like to have dear dear's opinion as well... =p hee... But there was a Converse sale (20% off). So I could not help it.. Bought a bball shorts for dear and myself... hehehe... a light striking blue! Yeah! =) Couple bball shorts... keke... waiting for next month to buy the sandal slipper I really like... which I think is good for dear as well... =) cos it is anti slip i think... =p We have already decided on the colour and all le.. just waiting for the time to buy them.. hahahaha...
Well, I think that pretty sums up my week... =)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
some random thoughts...
Just read a blog of a friend...
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
She was talking about love. Is it better to be loved and to love? I remember discussing this with dear dear. Hee... But we being our usual crappy selves, and seriously, we do feel that way, our conclusion is that it doesn't apply to our relationship. Cos we know that we love each other as much. =) Anyway, back to the blog entry... she also made an analogy, comparing love to canned food - It will change somehow, but does it mean that once we reach its expiry date, we have to throw it away? I hope not. Cos love is so beautiful, how can we throw something that is so beautiful away? =/ Learning to let go is so much better. There really is no reason to hold on so tightly to something that has already changed. Just like when you know the other party has already had a change of heart, it is better to let go then hang on there, suffering.
Anyway, is there really true love? Can someone really love another person for the rest of the life? I have no idea. Maybe it exists. I hope it does. Dear, your take on this? =p
We never know what will happen in the future. Thus we have to learn to treasure the present. Treasure the time spent together, treasure the memories and experiences. Treasure the people around us. I do not wish to have to learn this only when they are gone. But sad to say, most of time, people only learn to treasure and love when the person or item they love most disappears.. by then, it is usually too late.
So lesson to be learnt, always love and treasure the people around you. Let them know you love and care for them, and that you treasure them. Do not wait till it's too late. We do not know what our future holds for us. We can only pray hard and hope for the best, but it is even better to treasure our present. =)
a quiet time at home...
Well, here I am rotting at home. Just lazing around and surfing the net.. with totally no intention of going anywhere. Actually I wanted to go to the salon to cut and dye my hair, but the hairdresser whom I am looking for is not around. Thus, I have to put off the plan for at least today. =( Oh well, never mind then... So probably I shall cook lunch and wait for dear dear to come and have lunch. Haha... *grinz* Just that I have no idea if the lunch I am going to cook later would be nice or otherwise.. hahaha... Simply cos it is the first time I am attempting to cook it, so my darling shall be my guinea pig! Wahahaha... *evil laughters* Just realized something, I do not have all the necessary ingredients.. darn! Have to make a trip down to get them... arghh... just way too lazy for that... Doesn't matter...
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Love to have a quiet time at home all alone... Just bumming around, doing what I want to do... and not having to rush through anything... Consider me a slacker but I feel that holidays is indeed a time to enjoy... hehe... =) Enjoy the serenity in my own home... hee...
Just some thoughts: I really do feel lucky to have met Chester about 3 years ago and to have been able to get along so well with him that time. In Fei Yue, he was one of the 2 guys whom I was able to really get along super well with and chat on basically every single thing without any restrictions. Haha... Fate, some may say... =) Who would have guessed the way things have progressed over the 3 years. Who would have guessed, that we have seen each other through the 2 years, through all our problems and happiness in relationships, as bro and sis. Who would have guessed that this pair of bro and sis, from really purely platonic friends (they do exist, seriously), progressed to such a stage. Who would have anticipated that we would be so deeply in love with each other? Not even the both of us would have guessed so. =p No...
From knowing him when he was wooing his ex gf till she became his gf, till they went their separate ways, and him knowing me when I was with my ex till I broke off with him and back and off, we really came a long way. Not an easy road, pretty rocky... We know of each other's problems and emotions, we understood and gave each other a listening ear and helping hand. I'm glad in some sense that we went through all those together.. =) That is all in the past. I should focus on our future from now onwards. The future of Chester and Yuan. The road in front would still be full of obstacles, but at least I know we have each other. Not as bro and sis, but as friends and a couple. We shall strive towards our future with our love, determination and faith. No doubt, me being me, I am always bothered and upset by things of the past at times, I am still without a doubt looking forward to our future.
To Chester dear: I am sorry for all my insecurities and tantrums. I am sorry for treating in ways I should not have. But I just want you to know, despite all that, I am always holding on tight, though I may say it out. Simply cos you are the other half that completes me. =) *hugs* Thanks for walking this journey of life with me, my dear.
I will always remember, you will always be here for me, no matter what happens. You will always be my darling Chester dear. When things go bad, there will still be you. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
first time @ Esplanade with bei bei... =)
Hee... today dear and I went to Suntec... hehehe... at first, can say I practically dragged myself there.. but over there, quite enjoyable lah... hahaha... =) long time nvr go there le... keke... actually think the no of times dear and I had been to suntec is countable by just one hand... =( haha... not that it matters though...
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Anyway, I bought a top from NB cos they were having clearance sale... so got it for 20 bucks... pretty cheap... hee... *grinz* Then, we walked around at Suntec BIRD to look for sports bra... sigh... really don understand why they are so expensive... but well, nm.. I guess u can say they are investments... *shrugs* but seriously, they are very pretty and I really like them... oh, actually wanted to get a pair of bball shorts for dear dear, but he din want... wanted to get a similar one for both of us but there were none for female... I really detest that... always like that.. nearly everywhere also like that... the only place where I can find is at Converse... but theirs is unisex though... tsk tsk... Oh, never mind... =p
Had a small quarrel of sorts with bei bei... We were deciding what to eat when we walked past a particular shop... and he kept saying that we ate there before... So i told him no, we din eat there before... but he kept on saying yes... which got me really pissed off cos I din like the food at that shop and I knw I never went there again after one time... So that sparked off the unhappiness lah... was pretty pissed off la.. cos there was another time he insisted that we had ate something before but in actual fact, we did not eat at all and he ate with another gal! =( can you imagine how upset I am... when I knw u really rembr wrongly, and I try to tell you but in the end, your insistence on something that is wrong really upset and piss me off... but anyway, it is over le! haha... so everything is fine! =)
We went to Esplanade after dinner... hee... first time there with bei bei... love being there with him... =) just sat there cuddling together... hee... and admiring the stars and all... hehe.. seemingly, I thought I saw a comet.. haha... cos I saw a flash of green light in the sky and it was like shooting star... flew and disappeared... within seconds! or rather a fraction of a second...! =)
hehe... exciting... and I think if I am not wrong, the ferris wheel is built near esplanade right? hee.. saw part of the structure... =p
Oh, wanted to go eat Max Brenner's but then by the time we went there, they were servingonly drinks... which I am not interested... so another time bah... =)
Hmm... actually started off the day quite badly... cos was in a huge argument with dear and it threatened our r/p... I guess I was too impulsive and stubborn too... but thanks to the fact that my dear is so patient and determined... he made me soft hearted once again... Actually, I just don wan him to feel so suffocated and miserable... (I though he would feel this way!) but according to my baobei, he says he would be worse off without me in his life... *sniffs* Thanks beibei! =)
Announcement: I fell down and knocked my knee... &%$#! sigh... fell flat loh.. how clever can I get... =( hope I can still play bball tmr.. haha... Trying hard to improve la... slow learner... oopsies...
Ciaoz for now... will blog soon!~ =)
Friday, March 09, 2007
in school now..
well, I am currently stuck in my classroom, having MTP session... =p just had lunch and super full now.. oopsies.. and sitting down the whole day... aiyoh... hahaha... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Anyway, would be gg to nus to meet dear dear later... hehe.. and join them in bbal... keke... but den also a bit paiseh lah.. cos not very good at bball and they all seem to be regular players and experts... =p
dear dear quite stressed up over work lately cos seems like there is a lot for him to do and so little time.. and also he is being stressed by a certain person and the worst is that he has to work with that person for all his projects.. think he is really pissed off and sian lor... and the person also do not know how to be more people oriented... the person doesnt seem to be able to realize that not everyone is able to spend all the time on school work only... keeps stressing and asking things on the project... oh pls.. give my dear a break can... he wants to do well in his work more than anyone else... so get off his back! =( and stop bugging him as if he is super free!
Anyway hope to be able to cheer dear up later... hee.. =) missing my bei bei!
true birth month
Your True Birth Month Is November
Secretive
Romantic
Inquisitive
Trustworthy
Determined
Hardworking
High-spirited
High abilities
Unpredictable
Never give up
Sharp thinking
Thinks forward
Always thinking
Motivates oneself
Loves to be alone
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Extraordinary ideas
Unique and brilliant
Brave and generous
Well-built and tough
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Deep love and emotions
Uncertain in relationships
Honest and keeps secrets
Can become good doctors
Less talkative but amiable
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Not able to control emotions
Does not appreciates praises
Thinks differently from others
If there is a will, there is a way
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Knows how to get secrets out of others
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
| Your True Birth Month Is November |
Secretive Romantic Inquisitive Trustworthy Determined Hardworking High-spirited High abilities Unpredictable Never give up Sharp thinking Thinks forward Always thinking Motivates oneself Loves to be alone Has a lot of ideas Difficult to fathom Extraordinary ideas Unique and brilliant Brave and generous Well-built and tough Careful and cautious Dynamic in personality Deep love and emotions Uncertain in relationships Honest and keeps secrets Can become good doctors Less talkative but amiable Stubborn and hard-hearted Fine and strong clairvoyance Not able to control emotions Does not appreciates praises Thinks differently from others If there is a will, there is a way Hardly become angry unless provoked Knows how to get secrets out of others |
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
An entry on Planar Chaos...
Our current craze... Planar Chaos... hahaha... opening booster packs has recently become our craze.. quite addictive... somehow or other.. hehe... Just yesterday, we opened one super pack.. with a damnation and an extirpate in the same pack! woah... how cool can it be... hehe.. to date, we have like 5 or 6 damnations and 2 extirpates and 3 akroma angel of fury ( i think)... hehe... actually we are still short of some cards lah.. abt 8 like that.. hehehe... but according to bei bei, all the expensive ones we have le.. haha...
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
More updates on this soon... hehehe... =)
Monday, March 05, 2007
a long overdue update...
ooh.... long time nvr blog le... hehe... both dear and I both real busy I guess.. in some ways or other... so much so that we both neglected our dear blog... and friends who read.. hehe... apologies! =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)
Well, so where shall I start from? hmm.... can I do a summary? kekeke.... =)
okie... let's talk about our new year bah... hehehe.... oopsies... late late late update...
Well, CNY eve - 16th Feb... I went back to Malaysia with my family... back to have a gathering of sorts... that is how I spend my CNY every year... dear dear and I were both so sad lah... cant see each other for that few days... but no choice also lah... cos it's a tradition of sorts... Anyway, I got to drive... hahaha... cos dad rented a car and we drove back... keke... so I got to drive.. so happy lah! =) Reached malaysia at abt 4... and started to do all sorts of stuff like slacking, kpo-ing... etc etc... hehe... just plain lazy and all lah... also gave my poor sleepy piggy dear a call.. haha.. to tell him that I reached le... kekeke... =) He seriously slept the whole day after accomG me for the whole nite at my aunt's place... poor thing lah... But he is always so sweet and obliging... that's why I love my bei bei to bits... hee... =) well, had a great dinner with all the abalone and all... keke... cos reunion dinner mah... that's why go back malaysia always will become fat one.. oopsies.. cos all we do is eat, sleep, play, sit, watch movies, eat again... hahahha... =p
17th Feb... First day of CNY! err... me in Malaysia nothing much to do... woke up early in the morning,... and helped to prepare some food and all... then also ate my favourite mee suah... my ah kim's mee suah is super good lor.. hehe... very yummy... and I always get to eat a lot of quail eggs.. unhealthy i know.. but yummy la! =) Then in the afternoon, we just rotted at home watching movies and all lah... then had a super filling lunch... We had bbq for dinner... actually I din wan to do any bbq-ing cos I knw will get very smelly.. but in the end, I had to stand there and bbq all the way cos no one was doing it lor... wow.. cant stand.. had to bathe for very long after that... hehe... Well, also received all the ang baos and all.. keke.. that was the best part la! =p $$$....
As for dear dear in Singapore, he was busy visiting his uncles and cousins and all.. hehe... Should ask him to update himself lah... =p
18th feb... The day when I fell sick and when I came back to sg... well, had noodles for breakfast... then after that, we went out to have lunch at our usual restaurant.. hahah... cos it was the nearest and easiest place to go... But by then, I wasnt feeling well le.. and I din eat much for lunch... after that, we went visiting for a while but I was totally down by then... When we got home (malaysia), I immediately went to lie down and slept my day away.... totally bad ah! =( couldnt eat or down any food at all... vomitted around 7 plus as we were getting ready to come back... lucky I puked cos after that I felt better... my uncle very funny lah.. made me laugh... say why u so careless... hahaha... if u knw what he means lah... =p naughty lah! kekekekeke... =) Reached sg abt 10 plus and my bei bei was already waiting for me at my lift lobby.. hehe.. sweet right him? =) love u lah!
As for dear, he went to his granny's house to have steamboat and all I think... and also visit the relatives lah... oh... me got ang baos from them too lor... so paiseh lah... keke...
Dear dear stayed with me and looked after me all the way till 4 or 5 plus ah.. or smethg like that.. I was too sick to notice... kept running to the toilet... non-stop.. had nothing but water... actually water also not much leh... worse ah... so long havent been sick that way le...
19th feb... bei bei came to my house early in the morning again.. and took me to the doc with my daddy... I really couldnt sit or stand up for long time... slept the whole day away basically... waited for nearly 3 hours for the doctor... and some of them really extortion ah... 68 bucks for consultation... so damn expensive loh... tsk tsk.. i refused to see the doc there loh.. wait long and so exp too... so in the end, went to the one at cck.. as i was sleeping in the car, dear and my dad chatted away.. haha... the two of them so poor thing lah.. have to wait while i sleep... lucky that day got car...
Well, 4 yi and 5 yi came to our house in the afternn... and by then I was a little much better le.. but still not too good lah... but still can entertain them a little bit loh... hee...
20th and 21st... stayed at home as I was on MC.. had dear dear for company... still felt real bad on wed but was much better on thurs... actually wanted to go visit his family on wed but in the end, too sick to do so lah... oopsies... so dragged for another week... oopsies... =)
Friday.. 22nd feb... went back to school... finally... had so much things to catch up and all lor... super busy... and in the evening went to zim's house... for steamboat... and mj session and blackjack session.. haha... =) had fun though... =) think dear also had a great time playing magic.. trying out all his decks lor... hahaha....
Sat, we went to Chingay with Cindy and David and co... hehe.. cos Cin had tickets mah... not too bad, quite fun lah... heheh... long time nvr go town le... finally managed to go... But before we went to town, we were sleeping at home.. haha.. cos we were so tired lah! =) kekeke....
Well, nothing much to update le.. just normal school days for both of us... but oh... we visited dear's xiao yi on Monday and then his house on wednesday... hehe... and we watched Just Follow Law on Tuesday... really funny and I seriously have to applaud Fann Wong for her marvellous perfomance... really good! =) KUDOS to them both of them... Gurmit and Fann! =) we seriously had a great laugh... hehehehe.... forgot what we did on thursday le.. think we just went to imm and den after that we went to my house... and friday we played mj with sophia and her hubby... long time nvr play with them le.. hahaha... had a great laugh actually.. at the two of them... keke...
Brought some pupils out to the Anti Drug dance competition at United Sq on Sat... lazy to blog abt it lah... all I can say is tiring and busy! =( and helped aunt in the nite... +( super tired... On Sunday, we had a '
reunion' dinner of sorts with my family inclu my aunts and all.... hehe.. and after that, we rushed over to dear's house to cut cake for his 2 sisters.. cos it was their birthdays... hahaha... so qiao right.. both same bday.. hehehe... =) Soemhow, I was so tired on that day... .... zzzZzzzzzz...
hmm.. think it's a real long blog le.. shall stop here le.. hehehe... wait for more updates bah.. dear, u better do so soon loh... =)