Monday, March 19, 2007
Pressure...
Hmm... Recently, I feel as if I am putting quite of bit of pressure on dear dear... Pressure which is not needed and I should not be imposing on him right now. =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
1) Recently, my friend was talking to me about buying house and all.. Well, gals being gals, I am also interested and want to know as well. Naturally, I am excited about it as well, and I have always looked forward to having my own house, especially with dear dear. But apparently, my excitement did not really rub off him, instead it gave him undue pressure. I forgot what actually happened, but that was what he told me when I was talking to him about the house thingy. But actually I have no intention of rushing him or whatsoever.. I know he has his plans as well... *shrugs* My intention is actually to wait till we ROM first then start save up for traditional and flat as well.. As I know that our ideal home is around our current area, of which there will be no new flats, and we would most possibly have to purchase resale, so it is no point rushing for it now, as there will be no use for the place even if we find it.. cos we have no intention to rush into traditional as yet... But never mind, sorry dear I gave u all these pressure.. which you definitely do not need it as yet... =( sorry...
2) I have a friend who seems to be super well off along with her bf (also very well off too!)... and they seem to be enjoying life and all... Well, the guy is going to graduate soon and apparently, already secured a job before he grad... and it is a high paying job indeed... well, 1st class honours.. what to do? .... Though I know, its quite materialistic in a sense that I am so envious of my friend, but I really can't help it... Why does she seem to be so 'xin fu' in all aspects? Sigh... Actually I have no idea how should I put what I want to say... =( I guess all I can say is I am materialistic... and I do not know about contentment... Well, she is going to US in May... and it'd costs a few k per person for the trip... and she and her bf is going together... hey, he hasn't even started working... how come he has so much money???!!!?? Maybe the world is just not fair... =( Sigh... Besides, they just went to Europe last year... which already set her back about 7 k I think!!! So sometimes, how I can I not be envious... So much money!!! And she just bought a bag... which costs 2 k! OMG!!! Her bf paid 1k for that bag... where did they get the money??? Well, my materialism is acting up again... I wish I can learn to be more contented... But.... sigh... =( I am just pure envious... That is all I can say... We are all people, but we lead totally different lives... =(
And well, I felt as I was telling dear this, he was quite wierd... so I gathered must be I put extra stress on him once again... Sorry dear... Did not mean to... Just that sometimes... sigh...
Why am I so materialistic? Why can't I be more realistic? Sigh... =( Don't I know how to treasure and be happy? Why be envious and want more?
Well, I know I have to wait... wait till dear grads and starts working... but, I'm scared... Cos I have tried before standing beside someone, giving support and love, but in the end, when finally it is time to so called enjoy... the person left the fruits of my harvest to another person... and all I got was sadness and more sadness... So yeah, I'm afraid things will change... people will change.. I fear... I really do...
Sigh... especially with the fear that I seem to be placing on him, I am making things worse... =(
