Tuesday, March 06, 2007
quarrel
well, today wasnt really a good day... started off the day with a quarrel with dear dear... all cos of me... my inferiority complex again lah.. sigh.. and started off thinking about all those bad things and negative stuff esp about myself... =( so din wanna talk to dear and kept asking him to go away... and in the end, we said things that we did not mean to say....
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
It all sparked off with him saying that I always treat him with a black face while I can laugh with others at the same time... That got me really upset and I started to push him away... asking him to go find others who will not do that to him... and things along this line lah...
Anyway, the arguement was quite bad lah... and actually we were very upset... but then I was also quite angry in some sense.... =( but at last when I finally cooled down, we talked properly and when dear came to my school, all was fine le... hee... =)
Just want to let my dear dear know, I love him very much and I won't bear to let him go... We have so many things planned and undone... I don wanna spend my future with anyone else but you... so please rembr okie... u r my darling bei bei... always will be... sorry I am a bit harsh at times... but you know I don mean them one... Most of the times, I am just scared u will leave me... U knw how insecure I can be also... sigh... sorry bei bei... please tolerate me okie...
Love you always... =)
